5/29/2023 0 Comments We need to go deeper time devourerPhysical yoga practice, some exercise, used to see me through while I was doing it, but then…hello old friend…Now I’m much stronger with it. The trouble is that it can also be disheartening, panic-inducing and exhausting. Dissatisfaction can be a great motivating force in life. It’s healthy and adaptive to seek more, reach further, wonder what more we have in us, right? It’s a normal, self-actualising part of human growth, albeit not always a relaxing or very comfortable part. There’s always something greater, always something more just out ahead. Sure, we have wins, but most of us never feel that CD’s completely solved – that’s the chronic in it – because as we grow and achieve a goal, always another deeper level or a higher standard to reach emerges. CD is a feeling I recognise from long ago. Yet there it is, writhing on home again through my veins like a parasite that sucks my lifeforce. I have everything I need, no reason for life or death struggles in my day to day, no reason for sadness, no reason for yearning or such blatant aching need. Years later, despite being more satisfied in my life than I’ve ever been, I’m still able to time warp right back into the feelings of dissatisfaction I had as a teenager and twenty-something, if I let myself. Chronic Dissatisfaction is a close relative of that other perennial mind-stalker Fear of Failure to Fulfil Potential which also tends to rise up around the same time. Our celebrity-adoring, curated-life culture feeds CD, teasing us about whether we measure up, creating conditions that can keep us constantly doubting ourselves. Once CD has its hooks in you, it’s often a travelling companion on and off throughout life. It’s a common time for CD to first show itself, during what’s sometimes called The Quarter-Life Crisis – an early 20’s existential angst period where we crave deeper meaning and purpose, in ourselves and in the world. It’s also there in anxiety, in the indeterminate dread that something’s not right and may at some point shockingly emerge and ambush you. Dissatisfaction with something, or everything, is a player in depression. Sometimes it turned me in knots of anxiety, sometimes it got me feeling so flat I didn’t want to move. I was furious that I felt so powerless to mollify or sate that slavering devourer of happiness. I judged myself for letting it invade me as a host again. I seethed at myself when I felt it coming, gnawing chronic dissatisfaction. The symptoms include restlessness, needing more of something indefinable and always shifting, feeling like you’re not there yet (but wondering where the hell there is.) CD pushed and nagged me that I was made for more, to be more and express more until I bled. I should like to be somebody else. Oscar WildeĬhronic Dissatisfaction (let’s just call it CD) stalked me for years. also, plz put a link to the mod page on minecraftforum, planetminecraft, etc.I am tired of myself tonight. im makeing the pack 1.6, but it wont be for a while untill release so as long as its maintained it can go up. i think ill host it on technic platform, but it might be to big and i might have to put a manuel download.Īlso, Not to many modreqs. Some childmods to most of these like ic2nuclear control this will take very good coders, because do reduce lag i plan on makeing chucks spawn down, and i THINK it would work well.Īther? all modpacks ive seen with it dont work very well also, the name comes from the fact that i plan on makeing the world deeper. also this mod pack will be unique as it will be tech and adventure. it will be put together in different mods for costomization. also, i need some of YOU to help me code. i know some basic codeing skills, but i need a tutorial. alot of its content will be custom, but i dont code java. i am going to work on a new project called. Hey guys, im ninjapicklesdude, and i am a very ambitious minecraft player.
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